I gave myself a choice tonight: I could either go to the gym or I could update my blog for the first time in over a month. I already had all my steps in for today, so I opted for the latter.
I’ve put off writing this post for so long because I don’t wanna talk about it. I don’t wanna talk about what I’ve been doing, what I’ve been eating, how I’ve been sleeping, the exercises I’ve been doing, how I’ve been feeling, or any of it. More to the point, I don’t want to talk about how I basically took a break for several weeks and ended up back over 200.
That’s it. That’s as much as I’m saying. That’s as much talking about it as I’m gonna do.
Maybe I’ll make up for some of the lost entries, like my one-year anniversary, at some point. For now, I’m just going to write that I’m alive, I’m back to work, and I’m choosing to go back to the community instead of getting myself forever shunned.
I’ve been in a similar downward spiral in terms of food and sleep but I haven’t been brave enough to step on the scale.
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I ripped off the Band-Aid. It actually should have been way worse and I’m a little surprised it isn’t, but it was necessary so I know how to start making adjustments.
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